She existed in a percocet and morphine haze constantly fretting that the sedation kept her from saying all the things she wanted to say to us but unable to face the pain without it .

她就这么活在镇痛药percocet和吗啡的迷迷糊糊之中，镇静状态阻碍了她说出她渴望向我们倾吐的一切事情，这令她烦恼不已，但不这么做她又无法直面痛苦。